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The Acacia StrainThe All Stars Tour 07.2014 - Dallas TX_____________________
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Jeremy DePoyster / The Devil Wears PradaWarped Tour 
June 2014Dallas, TX
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Sketch of Carlos Enrique Navarro7.26.2014Micron pens
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Vincent Bennett / The Acacia StrainThe All Stars Tour 
July 2014Dallas, TX
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Derek is one of the nicest guys I’ve met. Make sure to visit The Summer Set’s tent on Warped Tour and say hi to this guy!

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Portrait of Derek BuellWarped Tour 
June 2014Dallas, TX
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Mike Hranica / The Devil Wears PradaWarped Tour 
June 2014Dallas, TX
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Devin Oliver / I See StarsThe All Stars Tour 
July 2014Dallas, TX
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One of the best days of my life. Photo by Sandra Chen
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Mike Hranica / The Devil Wears PradaWarped Tour 
June 2014Dallas, TX
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im-more-ashamed asked - "what camera do you use? c:"

Canon t3i, but I’m looking to upgrade soon.

7.23.14

I am an introvert.
Recently, I’ve become an intense procrastinator. 
It’s hard for me to complete things.
Every day, I have a million thoughts happening at once in my head that are hard to handle and organize.
Even writing this is difficult, because I don’t even know where to start or what words I should type.

Decisions. Life is about making decisions. I tend to overanalyze and overthink when I have to make a decision. For example, I could stay in one night, or go out to a party (and because I’m an introvert, the first option sounds great). I think about what I should wear, or what if I can’t find someone to talk to? Or what if my car gets towed? What if I lose my debit card? What if I can’t sleep over anywhere?

Deciding to work out or not.
Deciding which project is important to do.
Deciding if I should start drawing and working on this mountain of an art piece.
Deciding if I should update my socials or just wait, or even deciding if that shit even matters.

Regret. Generally, I regret when I decide to stay in, yet it’s where I’m most comfortable. When I do decide to go out, I regret not being as social and lively as I wish I could be. I regret all the things I didn’t do. I regret not being the person I want to be.

I regret not working out.
I regret not finishing that project I started last month.
I regret taking forever to make my business cards.
I regret eating junk food all week because now I feel like a fat orca.

Wishing. I wish I were healthier, thinner, stronger. I wish I had the willpower to stay up late and wake up early. 

I wish I had the willpower to work out early in the morning and run 3 miles.
I wish I had the willpower to stop watching so much TV.
I wish I could go out and photograph Austin more.
I wish I had more to do.
I wish I were an extrovert. 

Guilt. I feel guilty for taking a month on those photos. I haven’t even touched my website in months, even though my dumb ass is paying $20/month for the domain and service. I feel guilt for letting people down, because my introverted self wants to stay inside instead of going out. People make me feel guilt for staying inside instead of going out. I feel guilt because clearly if I just did all the things I wish I could do, I would be happy and my life would be perfect, right?

Even earlier this week, I decided not to go to a Craig Owens acoustic show in Dallas. Craig then took the time to comment on my photo saying, “Missed ya tonight!” Fuck. He noticed.

Per usual, I have a million things I want or need to do: editing photos, drawing, cleaning, marketing, networking, updating social media, job searching, and the list goes on for an eternity. It feels overwhelming and crazy. And then this happens:

I can’t decide which one to do first, so I just put it off.

I regret putting them off.

I wish I could finish these things.

I feel guilty for not finishing these things.

Why is all of this important? Because I realized something today, that I thought I already knew. What did I realize? That the answer to this is simple.

Just do it. Stop thinking, and just do it.

I called a good friend of mine today and voiced my concerns to him. I told him how I wished I worked out today. He replied, “Then go do it!” I went to respond to him, and I didn’t have a counter argument or an excuse to give him, because there isn’t one. I used to be a straight A, super nerd that was at an Ivy League school. I would stay up till 3 and wake up at 7 for my studios. Now, I can barely stay up past 10 and I wake up at 8. What the hell happened? 
Well, first off, I grew up and I realized that grades aren’t everything. I also learned that the standards at my school now are awful compared to the standards I had at my last school. It let me be lazy. I’ve been lazy for a couple years now, especially the year I had to take off from school. I didn’t feel like working, so I just starting “wishing” and wanting to do things instead of doing them.

Instead of wishing, just do it. You won’t feel guilt or regret for not doing it. I realized that I make my own life. I am taking things for granted. I’m only in my early 20’s once. It’ll seem painful to start something, but the finished product is oh so rewarding.

Today, I thought about if someone else were in my shoes, especially someone that I look up to, like another photographer, they would probably be doing things differently; they’d be out late photographing the city, going to parks, or doing portraits. If it were an artist, maybe they would be going out to draw every day and paint in the city. 
I have no one else to blame but myself. Looking back at this summer, I would change what I’ve done so far. Well, I wouldn’t change it, I would just do more than I have. I need to get out of this lazy-ass funk and get back off my feet. 

Look at it this way. If I did the things I’ve been wanting to do all summer, I would have the following:

- SBSW prints
- an awesome website
- a complete, giant Craig Owens drawing
- Sketchbooks full of doodles
- perfect social media sites
- I would be ripped as fuck

To wrap this up, this is corny, but life gets overwhelming, and then we worry if we are living our lives correctly. We begin over analyzing every minute we have. It’s ok. Just breathe, step back, and do what needs to be done. Nothing is worse than wishing, being filled with regret, and then feeling guilt. Decide “yes”. Baby steps.

Don’t look back and think of what you could have done instead of what you did do. If you don’t have inner motivation, then have your motivation be the success of others.

© Natalie Campbell
Dave Escamilla / Crown The EmpireWarped Tour 
June 2014Dallas, TX
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Dave Escamilla / Crown The EmpireWarped Tour 
June 2014Dallas, TX
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